after that, my mother and my brother came back together with alot of things. they asked him to open the door and do u know what he answer? he said, "open sendiri la, got key right?". that time i was in the room and didn't realized that they were back. how are they going to open it with a lot of things on hand? aaahhh!!! when i realized that, i quickly rush and open for them. my mother shoot him by saying "everytime u come back, who open for u? then late open the door, u will shout by asking why so slow open the door?". he just kept quiet and i guess he knew he was wrong. then peace back.
while i was talking to my brother in the room, i heard that my mother asking him to "prepare" the money for paying the old folks home (my grandma staying there now because no one can look after her). he agreed to share with his brother paying the monthly fees before that. he suddenly naik gila and shouted at my mother, "u just came back only and now asking money for me. u thought i'm very rich is it? i know have to pay it la. wait la. ask u to take her money to pay u don't want! another stubborn person. @#$%^&*. must scold u only u can understand". my brother suddenly got very angry seeing my mother kena scolded like a guilty person being scolded and shoot him back. this is the first time i saw my brother got so angry and shouted at him. my brother cannot see mother being scolded so teruk. he said, "lu lang ginah mai luan". "ginah"? how old are we? my brother 22 already and i am 19. count as teenagers already. u still day dreaming thought we are 5 to 6 years old child? i was born in what year also he doesn't know that.
since small, he never given any money to my mother and us (me and my brother). isn't every husband must sara their wife and childrens? what kind of husband are you? worst husband worst father. i never want this kind of father and rather don't want to have one.my mother used her own money to pay for the deposit for the old folks home and the hospital bill. at first he didn't say anything about the deposit but then he asked to use her mother's money and told in front of her. of course she jump up and said she rather stay at home and die there. as a normal human beings, i feel pity her for having this kind of sons. then my mother only asked to prepare and not immediately want the money. my grandma already stayed there and sure need to pay for the first month. he thought need to pay only at the end of the month. banyak cantik la his muka. why since my mother married to him, she always get scolded by him? is it worth getting scolded for nothing and sufferred in these 23 years, mom?? if i were u, long time ago i run away already. my mother took a very good care of his mother until get sick and this is what she get - scold.
now planning to move out. i couldn't stand it anymore. today in MAP class i have no mood at all to do the exercise and some exercise i did got wrong answer. where is my mind? i also don't know. i don't feel like going back home at all. but what to do? we haven't get any house yet and my mother and brother are working these few days. haizz i feel really stress and sad seeing my mother like this. my first aunty said, " u all ar very bising one la, i don't care la". the second aunty said, "sabar". ask my mother to be patient again??? do u all know what are the feelings of suffering all these??? did u all ever care our feeling and pity her??? hard working to raise me and my brother alone. because u never feel it, u won't know. u all can just simply say like that.
haizzzz......
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